| The Chronicles | Transitioning | ||||||
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 Have to have a picture to break up a the monotony of text. This is an old shot that I took in Scotland a few years ago of some kids at a park. I was doing better. After a couple of days of pain and everyone trying to get my mind off of things, Cassie and I were beginning to look like we could be friends. Let's take a look back at the events of this week... The Week Monday night was really sad and I stayed up quite late. Tuesday, I missed my classes, and went to eat dinner with the guys and went to Navs. Matt asked me if I wanted to come along with him and some friends to see a movie afterwards. So, I ended up seeing "Phone Booth". Acting was good, ending was blah. Wednesday...I'm having a difficult time remembering for some reason. Oh wait...that was the night that a bunch of Auburn people got together again and chatted. Cassie was talking to quite a few people I knew, so I decided to fire up the invite and get everyone together. I ended up having conversations with a few people that I'd met online before, but never talked with to any depth. In particular, I talked to Mal. I guess I should start with Shades though. Shades is this guy that has been posting on the PMB about as long as I have. We've gotten into it a few times over the years, but within the past month, we started IMing and we've gotten to be friends. About the same time, there was a big elections debacle at Auburn. So, I got everyone on the PMB together in an AIM chat. Well, Shades meets this girl Mal (and her friends) and they hit it off pretty well and actually become friends and hang out. Keep in mind, Shades has shielded his identity from most everyone up until that point. In fact, he still refuses to tell me. Hopefully, I'll meet him here in about 6 hours. Anyway...jump forward several weeks. I'm talking with a bunch of Auburn people again and end up having a conversation with Mal. I often try to do a little investigative work to figure out who people are, but she's a freshman, so it didn't really work. She asked if I wanted to see a picture. We traded some pictures. I offered to crop some of her photos and we ended up having a good conversation that night. I then proceed to do stupid things. When I have a good conversation with a new person, I tend to try to pick the conversation back up as soon as possible. I guess I'm realizing that while I'm patient with things and simple stuff, I'm impatient with people. I usually want friendships/relationships to be less gradual and more immediate, and that's the rub. They don't work that way. They flow over the course of days, weeks, and years. The Weekend Okay...so, Friday hits, and I'm hyped. After school, I talked to Shades and Mal for a while. As they leave, they tell me they have to go to Wal-Mart. Ten minutes later, Amber, Ros, Leigh, and Natalie pick me up to go shopping for Kevin and Deidre's engagement party the next day. Lo and behold, they tell me that we're going to Wal-Mart. I figure..."Hey, maybe we'll run into Shades and Mal." So, I looked around for a second when we walked in the door, didn't see them, and assumed they'd already left. I didn't give it a second thought. Well, they hadn't left. In fact, they saw me and my blue hair (which the chicks still don't dig). They just saw me and Leigh and no buggy. So, when I got home I had Shades greet me with, "dude that's not cool". Apparently, it appeared that I was stalking. After a brief trial, I was able to explain myself. At the store, I picked up some blue Peeps and did my usual Seinfeld "What's the deal with...?" that I have a tendency to do when I shop with other people. Anyway...later that night, I dropped by the concert they were having on campus, met up with some people, and invited everyone back to my place afterwards to hang out. We actually had a pretty good crowd and quite a few new people. Scotty should've shown up...there were actually more girls than guys. Anyway, we played some Scattergories, some Mafia, and the last few stragglers and I watched "Fight Club" into the early morning. Robbie and I had seen it. Two of the girls liked it and one didn't. Think they thought it was too graphic and didn't quite get the point. The next day, I woke up in the afternoon, drove the bbq place to pick up the food for Kev and D's party, found out they didn't accept credit cards, ran to an ATM, and finally bought the stuff and took it over to Kev's place. After that, I went home, showered, and changed into my party get-up. Amber liked the shiny, silver shirt in my closet so much that I decided to get some use out of it. So, I've got my black pants, a shiny shirt, no glasses, and spiked blue hair. I was ready to party as soon as Scotty lent me his sunglasses to wear the whole night. Everyone was pretty amused and kept telling me that I was the only person that could pull it off. I told them that I doubted I was pulling it off, but that I was grateful for the compliment. Yes, there will be pictures later. Also, Matt and Mike continued their habit of insisting to call me 'Big Sexy'. "It's funny cause it's ironic." If they keep it up, I'm worried I'll start using it in the third person. "Big Sexy likes the ladies." Early on in the party, we (around 30 people) sat around and played some games. One in particular was an eating game. I was the first volunteer and actually managed to win, but I hadn't known it was an eating game when I volunteered. Basically, two people were paired up and had to bid on how many bites they'd eat a mystery food in. I beat Scuzz by eating a huge wad of chocolate chip cookie dough (about the size of my fist) in two bites. Certainly the coolest was what Ros did though. He actually swallowed the joke food - a live goldfish swimming in a glass of water. Hard to beat that one. Later on, we got in a few hours of dancing, which was really unexpected and fun. My only complaint was that my right foot hurt. I'm still kind of limping around. Finally, we finished out with some really big games of Mafia. I wasn't really too happy with the way I played a couple of the rounds, but it was still fun. So, that brings everything up to this afternoon when I hit those realizations about being impatient. I apologized to Mal for basically messaging her too much. I also apologized to Cassie for not trusting her and having taken her advice more while we were going out. Tonight, we got in a warn war, which created some havoc. Also, Shades and another guy decided to try to freak me out by quoting back in the Auburn room part of a private conversation I'd had with the other guy about a month ago. They then proceeded to deny the whole thing, and everyone seemed pretty upset by the end of the night. I think I'm going to stay off of AIM for the next few days. It frustrated me too much today. I was pretty sure that Cassie was really mad with me about the warnings, but I just read her latest entry and that makes me feel better. The Procrastination Not too much else to say...I need to do laundry, shower, eat something, and figure out an oral presentation for French within the next six hours or so. I was feeling quite bad when I started this entry, but I'm actually feeling a good bit better right now. Eh well. Au revoir. | |||||||
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