The Chronicles Life Is A Stage
The Start June 16, 2002 The End
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Preface
Dammit. It's six in the morning, and as I'm laying there in bed, I've got stuff swimming in my head that won't go away until it's said. Notice the rhyme there? Yeah...sorry.

The Girl Part (skip it if you want)
22 girls, 3 dates. That's the current count since my last, one-week relationship. It's not that I was dwelling upon it or anything. Christine just helped me come to that realization the other evening when she suggested that perhaps I've been going after girls that were out of my league. In the course of defending myself, I tried to prove that there'd been a wide variety, and hit upon my ludicrous persistence to the point of sheer stupidity.

Definition, Frustration, Variety
Felt that I might as well go ahead and get the "girl stuff" out of the way since that's all I take about anyway, right? Geez people. The 'romantic' in the topic...

    Main Entry: ro·man·tic
    Pronunciation: rO-'man-tik, r&-
    Function: adjective
    Etymology: French romantique, from obsolete romant romance, from Old French romans
    Date: 1650
    4 a : marked by the imaginative or emotional appeal of what is heroic, adventurous, remote, mysterious, or idealized
I suppose I brought it upon myself. I went out and got a review and wasn't happy with what I received. Most of the time the lady gives people A's. I got a C. Apparently, I write well, but I'm just too dull. Wonderful. I mean, in one way it's nice...I've never sought to be like the mainstream journals out there...but at the same time it's like "Hey, you're smart, but you're really boring." Perhaps the length of entries was too much for her? I do like saving stuff up for a week and thinking about it so I can emphasize quality over quantity. Maybe she just doesn't relate to me. I think she usually reviews girls' journals. Anyway, this journal has always been for me and my friends, so I suppose I shouldn't let it bother me.

But at the same, I opened up a can of worms with my discussion of this topic. Apparently, this journal is not only dull, but also self-absorbed, lacking in variety, pseudo-conversational, list-like, and unemotionally written. This was from my friends, mind you. =/

So basically, I'm struggling to figure out what it is about my writing style that makes it so damn boring. It's not really an accusation that I've had to face before. Maybe people were just humoring me in the past.

Obviously, it's a personal journal, so it's hard to change the self-focus (more on that later). And, I do have a tendency to work in lists and attempt a conversational tone. Also, I suppose the emotion comes up lacking in the ability to confer something without facial expressions or vocal inflection. Most of the time, I'm in a generally cheery mood while writing. Right now, I'm somewhat frustrated.

As far as variety...I know you've accused me of writing about girls too much...seriously though, I've tried to reform. I devote maybe a paragraph at the tail-end of every couple entries. Maybe since it's at the end, it's the last thought that you're left with...or as I've said before, perhaps it's that I tend to use this as an outlet for those thoughts. Apparently, the only thing that I write about in addition to girls is DDR. I'd point to the times where I've written about movies, family, friends, and philosophical issues, but I suppose you're right to a certain extent. A lot of times, I do focus on things more than others.

Marit suggested that I write about some other interests of mine that I'm very passionate about...that usually stuff like that is quite interesting...and offering that usually my movie reviews are good. I guess I'll try writing about stuff like that more in the future.

Eh well. Enough of my ranting...onto one of those philosophical things that I've been meaning to put on here for a while (you can skip it if you've heard it before)...

"Life Is A Stage"
Shakespeare's Hamlet says, "All the world is a stage, and all the men and women merely players. They have their exits and their entrances, And one man in his time plays many parts."

Several years ago, I came to a similar realization. Though, in my particular take, the idea is slightly modernized.

Ever think about the suggestion that you put yourself in someone else's shoes? It's an attempt to get a person to view the world from a different perspective. However, it's still limited. No matter how much we try to sympathize/empathize with another person, we're confined to ourselves. We can never fully take on another persona. It's our feet in those shoes.

Now, I rarely watch sitcoms anymore, but I was watching quite a few at the time that I formulated this idea. Do you ever think of yourself as the star of a sitcom?

You've got co-stars that are usually your close friends and/or family. They share each episode (your daily life) with you. They've got various quirks about them that make you consider them interesting people and unique in their own way. They're usually quite defined in your mind.

Then, you've also got the occasional guest stars or cameos. Usually, those are your relatives that came into town for the week, or those old friends that you see every now and then.

In addition, there are the extras. Those are the people that populate most of the world. They make up the background. Every now and then, they'll have a line like, "Welcome to McDonald's...may I take your order?" and might eventually graduate to co-star level, but generally, they're just there occupying space, providing scenery, and having very little impact upon you beyond that.

Now, before you think me callous for dehumanizing, just think about it a minute. I think we all have tendency to engage in this type of thinking. Once we recognize that we do it, we can work to remedy it.

Individualism
"Extras" are people too. They're individuals and consider themselves to be individuals just like you and me. Ever stop and think about the life of a person you randomly see on the street? I don't mean throwing them into a little box with some cute description. I mean trying to ponder their life, the essence and the scope of their existence.

One particular situation where such thoughts really have a tendency to hit me...stadiums. Whenever I'm at a Braves or Auburn game, and I look around and see the tens of thousands of people, I get overwhelmed by "sensing" life. I mean, it penetrates me, and I feel part of a breathing giant. My mind gets overloaded as I look from person to person and attempt to comprehend them as individuals. I realize that many have lived as long as I have or maybe two, three or four times as long...they've laughed more times, they've cried more times, they've had more loved ones, they've had more horrible experiences, they've had as more great experiences.

There's a feeling of contentment and peace that comes with the idea. Sometimes, it can make you feel small - a tiny star in a universe - but mostly it makes you feel happy. You can meet those people. You can share in their experiences. You can laugh or cry with them. And it's you (an individual) with them (individuals).

Well, that's enough philosophizing for one entry. I think I'll go to bed now. Hope I didn't bore ya this time. ;)

"Do you ever think of yourself as the star of a sitcom?"

9 Comments

Ziggy Stardust! Yeah! Yeah!

Posted by Marit @ 06/19/2002 08:58 AM CST


Hey Marchant,
About this whole review thing i think it is a bunch of crap. You & Ray like to play the overprotective sibling alot so now it's my turn. Don't listen to this review person! They have no right to rate you on your personal thoughts. So many people love reading your journal, and for the people that don't....screw them....it's your personal journal, it's what you think about stuff. Others may have different opinions but all i know is that you shouldn't let this review get you down. I always admired you for not really caring about what others think.(ex.blue hair) Why are you starting to care know? I love you! Talk to you later!~Sis

Posted by Sarah @ 06/18/2002 09:07 PM CST


Dustin,
Hey man....I was just reading what you wrote, and I find in interesting that you actually just found this site, and just read it for fun. I am one of Marchant's good friends in Auburn [even though on here it doesn't often sound like it :)]. Anyway...I just have to know why a stranger would be so interested in Marchant. IM me if you want....on Aol Instant Messanger my screen name is DontIMMarchant. Hilarious isn't it.
Oh yeah marchant i have to say I really like your journal too, I was just making a comment that you told us we could skip all this if we have heard it before....well we have...but obviously we're not tired of it, or we wouldn't keep talking about it, and coming back for more. Dustin is living proof, unless Marchant you wrote that to make yourself feel better about your journal. =\

Posted by given upon request @ 06/18/2002 11:30 AM CST


march,

seriously man... i love your journal. it is black in background color, which to me is a sign of deep and pensive thoughts. do you notice how relentless always goes under a color change, yet the basic layout is about the same each time? it is because i feel connected to my feelings through my website. if you need an idea of how to write better since you are almost begging for them, this is what i do (whether people humor me and tell me it is good or not is not for me to judge).... i take an every day event... like say for instance, someone along the street flicks you off. this sets off a moment of thought for you. you can expand upon not the physical action of what he did, but how he must be insecure with his own self to disregard others. see? it is taking what is there, and working with the ideas. i hope you don't stop writing about your personal life in here, that's why its a journal, plus i can keep up with your daily events while im in atlanta. :D

Posted by john @ 06/17/2002 11:59 PM CST


I found your journal about 10 months ago and have been reading it ever since. What first caught my attention was how you wrote what was on your mind (which was girls, of course). I could totally relate to almost everything you said. Lately you have been talking less about girls, to my dissapointment, but I still read on because I enjoy reading what you have to say. What I'm trying to get across to you is, write what you feel/think, not what you think people want to read. This journal is for you (and for anyone who wants to share in your experiences and thoughts). Just "keep it real", ya know? At least, that's my opinion...

Posted by Dustin @ 06/17/2002 09:04 PM CST


I just like the typos. Mwahaaa.

Posted by format C: @ 06/17/2002 04:09 PM CST


not much of a journal? you've got to be kidding me. it was good. i mean really good. i would love to hear more of that kind of stuff that goes on in your head. thats the real you, thats the stuff that matters. i really liked what you had to say. maybe you could even expand on what you already said. keep it up.

Posted by d @ 06/16/2002 10:17 PM CST


well not much of a journal, I skipped it all....hey you told me to.

Posted by kev @ 06/16/2002 08:48 PM CST


You want to write better? Then you have to learn what makes good characters. Since this is a journal, then you are the main character. Therefore, if you think your writing is boring, then you have to develop the character. That means either digging deeper and telling more about yourself, or doing things that will make for better entries. Perhaps going with your thoughts of the sitcom and actually turning yourself into a sitcom character would make for some interesting readings.

Posted by Alex P. Keaton @ 06/16/2002 06:36 PM CST


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